As I'm aimlessly browsing the internet at work because who shops at a RV dealership for last minute Christmas presents, I see a new to me Darius Rucker video, "What God Wants For Christmas".
Watch it, you will not be disappointed. I think I'm a bigger Darius Rucker fan than I was 10 minutes ago.
As of this moment, right now, my husband's family has lost a husband (his Uncle Ricci), one Aunt has been in the hospital for a couple of weeks fighting with pnemonia, and one Aunt was admitted to the ICU this very morning.
My Mexican Dad, Bob, had emergency heart stints put in just two days ago and sometime within the last couple of weeks had a heart attack without even knowing it. And because that is not enough, I found out that my Grandpa, Hank, was diagnosed with lung cancer because fighting leukemia off and on his entire life wasn't bad enough.
To say I feel like God is killing off all the older people in mine and my hubby's life right now is a bit of an understatement.
I really do not understand what is going on.
Why do these people who we love so deeply have to suffer?
Haven't they all suffered enough?
Then I watched Mr. Rucker's video.
I still don't understand the many "whys" running through my head, but I do know HE has suffered, too and that HE continues to suffer with us when we say our untimely goodbyes.
Can you imagine, even for a second, what God must have been feeling when His son was on the cross in more physical and emotional pain than any of us can ever feel? Jesus Wept., John 11: 35. I fully believe in the trinity and that when Jesus Wept, God did as well. It is who they are, strung together by they very existence. I also believe that God rejoices when we rejoice, that He cries with us in laughter and sorrow, and that he suffers more deeply than we are capable of imagining.
What does God want for Christmas?
I think He wants us to use our gifts to increase the laughter and rejoicing for His children.
I think He wants us to not be idle with despair of sorrow but to find joy in what we have experienced and to continue to find joy in the mundane parts of life, not just the big adventures.
I think God wants US for Christmas. All of us, not just our Sunday morning selves, but our happy, sad, moody, fickle selves that we share with those family members closest to us but try to hide from the Lord who created us and has already been there, done that, and is currently wearing the t-shirt.
As I try to wrap my mind around the very good possibility of having to say those final good byes to many of my family and friends, I should spend my time rejoicing in the times we have had and try to make some awesome new memories and laughters before it is too late.
May this Christmas be full of rejoicing in the Birth of Our King surrounded by loved ones making memories to last a lifetime, no matter how long or short that lifetime may be.
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