Trusting God in Choices

Every morning, I do the same thing.

Wake up, pee, let Cinnamon out, feed the cats, get my coffee, sit down and read the verse of the day in my Bible app, the devotion in a book called "A Little God Time for Women", look up and read the verses in my actual Bible because it has foot notes and those really help me understand better, journal/ write to God, and then get on with the rest of my day.

Some days I read everything and nothing really hits home at all.  Other days, like today, it's like Jesus is sitting next to me and having a conversation with my soul.

Before I get to the Bible verses, let me give you a quick picture into my brain, heart and soul this week.

Earlier this week we found out that selling our house at the price that will pay off our debt is doable but, if we want to sell it in a couple of weeks, we would lose our savings account.  Obviously the latter is not even an option, but how long will we be paying for double rent/ house payments?

If we stay put, we have to trust in God to provide help to take care of everything when I can't; financial support for who knows how long (it's amazing how we have been blessed in this aspect already); a LOT of work with the outside upkeep; things breaking down; more mouths to feed with more animals; keeping a large home clean enough for Ted to heal properly; and my very human protective mechanism of what if the unthinkable happens and I end up having to go through all of this alone not knowing what Ted wanted.

If we move, we have to trust in God to sell our home quickly for the right price; that the kids will adjust to a new place without too much trouble; that we can find loving homes or a rescue for Todd, Bella, and Nala; and yet another very human worry- will Ted be happy in a mobile home park without his barn?

Both scenarios give me such anxiety and fear.

They also both rely on trusting God.

"continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose.  Philippians 2: 12b-13

"You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you.  Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord, the Lord, is the Rock eternal."  Isaiah 26:3-4

Over the past couple of weeks, I have been so fixated on which decision is right or wrong.  What one does God want us to do to fulfill his will?

You know what?

God has been telling me that both options are okay.  That he will CONTINUE to take care of us in ways that simply blow my mind.

Whatever we decide.

God knows it.

He has seen it.

He has been with us this far, he won't drop us now on a decision to trust him in a different way.  In fact, I know he is waiting for the opportunity to make our heads spin with his promises of never leaving nor forsaking us.

Whatever you are facing, KNOW that you are not alone.  That sometimes, most times, you just need to make a decision, stick with it, and trust God to take care of all the details.  Because there is no way that we can take care of them all ourselves.