My Plans are NOT God's

Back in late December I made a list of goals for 2017, the last year of my 30's.  On this list were several races I was going to run or run/bike/swim, basically one every other month or so.  Training throughout January was going really well.  I actually really like winter snow running as long as the temps are above 20 degrees F.  On a long trail run in February, I sprained my ankle, bad.  Walking boot for 4 weeks bad.  There went my April race.  I started to run again, feeling fairly good mid April and May, and then POP went my knee.  My left knee, the good one.  The May race flew out the window.  June had a 5k with Girls on the Run that I had been coaching.  Nothing was stopping me from that race.  I was wrapped up, essential oil lathered and a few pain killers in my blood... those girls needed me and I needed them.  So we ran/ walked and encouraged one another to the finish line.  My indoor exercises were going really well, too.  May 1 I stared PiYo because of its less joint impact and was doing really well until June 8th, when we got the cancer diagnosis.

All plans made disappeared. 

Every single moment needed to be spent with my husband of 17 years.

Perhaps God was preparing my heart and mind in those injuries to be ready for this new journey I never wanted to go on?

He knew the day we were married that this was going to happen.  God knew that we would not be able to go through cancer  unless we went through everything else together first.

Do I think I am ready for this?  Heck NO!!!  I truly have no clue what I am doing, but God does.  He is directing me and giving me the strength to make my hubby mad when he asks for things that feed his cancer cells and instead I bring him things that will starve them.  

In three weeks, I have learned so much than I have in years.

1.  My plans are NOT God's plans.

2.  God uses set backs to prepare us for the unthinkable.

3.  Cancer is NOT God's plan... he is NO WHERE in those deformed cells.

4.  God has NOT forgotten about us.

5.  God is using all of YOU, our family, friends and strangers.

6.  It's good that it is difficult to accept gifts from others.

7.  Today is a true gift to be enjoyed.

8.  Hard decisions to make are generally the right ones.

9.  Sacrifices are a daily part of life.

10.  True care giving is hard and yet rewarding.

Please continue to pray for us.  We have a very long road ahead of us.

Love you all.